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I can’t keep walking in your shadow
Like I’m behind you in a never ending line
Buying oreos and skittles and hoping
Wishing
Screaming at you
to turn back around and tell me a story
about your cat
your shoes
your girlfriends love
Head phones on
Volume up
Head down I march forward into tomorrow
and tomorrows tomorrow
and tomorrows tomorrows
and it never ends
I never get any closer to you
I can never get past the shadow I walk in
To touch you or make you listen
I cant stay back here in the darkness
While I wait for rainbows and unicorns and the things that fairy tales are made of
to show up and rescue me
I have to break free of the weight on my heart holding me down
pushing me back
drowning me in sorrow and 10 dollar lattes
I have to leave your shadow behind me and let it walk only with my shadow
It can no longer run at the front of the race
I must return to my black and white world and your shadow is simply too full
of brightly coloured rain drops and glitter
This line is to long to keep standing behind you when the store closes so soon
I dart away to a moving line
Like a frightened child I call your name in hopes that you will turn
nod your head
call my name back
from that far dark place I left you and your shadow.
I know you wont but my hope and delusion run deep from the time spent ignoring reality
You never turn around
I wait and wait and wait
and the sun falls deeper and deeper and deeper into the horizon
and your shadow morphs constantly but never turns you around
until suddenly
finally
I walk away
