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Missing Moments
As you may or may not know when I was pregnant I was virtually alone. My family didn’t know, I had just moved 6 hours from my home and I was already VERY pregnant when I found out.
There was no excitement.
There was no anticipation.
There was no planning or shopping.
There was fear and loneliness and pain.
I dont have pictures in the hospital of proud grandparents, an amazed father, grinning friends. I dont have the memories of laying in the dark, feeling her kick and waking up someone to feel it with me. No one talked to my belly wondering what my baby was going to look like. My countdown was my own and no one held my hand or helped me breathe through labour.
Now, seeing happy pregnant women makes me sad. I know my situation was very different from most but I still feel like I missed something special. Obviously my healthy, beautiful daughter is whats important but not knowing if Ill have another opportunity to experience all these things tugs my heart a little.
Another lesson in missed opportunities. :(
