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Blowing Smoke
*twitch twitch shudder twitch*
Breathe in…
Breathe out…
Breathe in…
Breathe out…
Almost 2 years ive been “clean”. 2 YEARS! And yet some days, its like I took my drag yesterday.
I can be honest about this, I didnt quit smoking for me. I didnt quit smoking to save money. I didnt quit smoking because I didnt love smoking anymore. I quit smoking because I had Monkey and didnt think it was fair to subject her to it. Even smoking outside brings the smell in on furniture and clothing.
Blah blah health benefits… blah blah smell better… blah blah food tastes better… blah blah blah blah
I MISS CIGARETTES!!
Not always, but in certain moments I would kill a muppet for just one beautiful, perfect, tobacco filled cylinder. But I know I couldnt stop at just one. I couldnt be that person that smokes when drinking but not any other time. I am either a smoker or a non-smoker, not an occsional smoker.
So what am I yapping on about? Why am I talking about this now?
Because I really want a smoke. Theres no secret meaning behind this. I have no rant. I just want a smoke.
But I wont. Ill just sit here and…
*twitch*
